Reflection and Deep Self-Inquiry are amazing gifts to give ourselves that we deserve more often than we may take the time for.
At pivotal times in our life’s journey, at the end of a cycle, when we’re feeling lost and need clarity, and always, are perfect times when we can benefit from a good deeper inquiry.
Exercising our reflection and inquiry muscles with open receptivity and without the need to fix or judge is an incredible healing and clarity-inducing practice and experience. Getting to know ourselves, witnessing, listening, seeing, allowing for the deep inner-aha moments can be so expanding!
On December 30th, we attended a beautiful sangha workshop with Jahnavi Harrison on Zoom.
It was a day of devotion, reflection and chanting with Jahnavi (IG: @jahnavi_harrison), a satsang Q&A with Jahnavi’s Dad, Kripamoya Das (FB: Kripamoya Das Sanga), and a “Looking Back and Stepping Forward” Draw Your Feelings guided process with artist-illustrator Rukmini Poddar (IG: @rockinruksi).
Mark and I had already been intentionally sitting with and talking through our experience of the closing year. We’d been leaning into the themes, growth points, and overall energy of 2021 and making the choice to join in with Jahnavi’s very special online community at the year’s end was the perfect way to bring everything full circle.
Looking Back … Stepping Forward Exploration & Reflection
This is the reflection I shared with Rukmini and Jahnavi per their survey request after our year-end sangha experience:
“For me, the energy of this past year was a breath by breath, moment to moment invitation inward, to honor and see and LOVE ALL that lies within more truly, clearly and deeply.
My energy word flow to describe what 2021 was for me in continuous undulating waves of highs and lows … Growth, expansion, trust, willingness to look deeper, to experience deeper, to feel deeply, inner journey, inner inquiry, ask more questions, explore (yes, even the shadows, especially the shadows), discover, relate, uncover, accept, release, embrace, let go, let go some more, honor, witness, observe, appreciate, FEEL (all the feels, not just the happy feel good ones), allow x tons, align, re-align, align tons, rebirth, re-parent, inner child, self love, self care, awareness, remember, re-member, inner-authority, authenticity and integrity even when it’s harder, especially then, slowing down more, simplifying more, listening more, evolving, becoming, transforming, be true, stay true … ever-evolving, ever-aligning, truer, truer, truer … Knowing what serves, knowing what doesn’t, being clear and honest about it all, adjusting sails accordingly, leaning into clarity, leaning into discomfort (growing pains), seeing with the eyes of the heart, seeing with compassion (self and others) … etc., etc., etc., … all while KNOWING the Presence that I AM, that part of me that is Infinite LIGHT, unchanging, undying, unborn, shapeless, timeless, formless, never lost, always Presence … and living the experiment experience of this human life here on earth merged with Presence, embracing it, grounding into it, elevating with it, allowing and giving self-healing and self-nurturing moment to moment, BEing more and more of who I really am as I discover more of myself deep within … feeling the pulse of inspired creativity starting to grow inside again, starting to feel the current of momentum leaning with cautious care toward more outward expression and sharing again, serving life in, with, through and as LOVE. There is no rush. Integrity, clarity, authenticity … from true inner alignment and authority first … in my timing, in divine timing.
May my daily practice and conscious choice to live into greater awakening and becoming continue to be ever supportive. I will continue to swim in the ocean of devotion, singing, chanting, breathing, moving, experiencing, loving, allowing, growing, expanding, evolving …
May this awakening within me and around me continue in the Light of Grace.
This is what 2021 helped me to see and experience more clearly, and what I did my best to serve from the heart to invite others I had the blessing to work and journey with to see and experience more clearly as well.
I believe this last year to be an evolutionary step in healing the collective and living the LIGHT of Presence alive more fully (each one of us, uniquely, inwardly, first…and then also together, harmoniously). Now, I journey onward. Consciously. Willingly. On purpose.
Hari Om Tat Sat … OM Hari OMLove Light Blessings BE. ~ Savi”
